It's been a long while since I've updated this blog, fortunately most of that is because of good things, a new job, some projects I'm working on, there is part of that that comes with being fairly paralyzed when it comes to putting myself out there. Each time I open a new, blank, page I have a debate, half truths that tell people the gist of the thing, or do I open myself up completely. Spoiler, I can't open myself up completely. I feel like my true honesty comes in the work and not out of my person. I know that's kind of a bleak view on things, but I don't see it that way. Trust is earned and for me it takes a long time to earn it. I'm also not one of those people who say once I trust you I'll always trust you.
All of that, all of that nonsense I just wrote, is what I've been trying to do in the past couple of weeks. So essentially I am not writing this blog because I have no real stuff planned out, I'm not writing this blog because I'm afraid. And yet, transparency within reason is important to me and I don't believe in hiding whats going through my brain, at least on the logical side, the insecure former me on the other hand thinks it's important to keep your business your business.
I suppose I write again because it's more important to me to face the fear instead of letting it sit on my shoulders for the rest of my life