For You.

you were the hardest one to quit
just because you had maps of me
drawn in your head and placed on my body
you knew me best
knew what sent chills down my spine
and how to get me when i'm
sad
i was never sad with you
just floating above with you
shoplifting black red nail polish
because you liked how close it
looked to blood
i don't think I ever lost you
the first time, but maybe this time
my favorite color isn't black red
anymore, i like a dark purple
it makes me feel like royalty
because i never told you
but i'm royalty
and there's none of that
for you