fields of flowers

once i whispered in your ear
that fields of flowers terrified me
that for some reason i could never fathom that much life
you kept telling me i was missing the beauty
and i couldn't explain that the beauty was there
but it was also so much
so much more than i could take in
as the gentle breeze swayed my beautiful nightmares
i calmed a bit, thinking about dancing with them
wondering if the overwhelming feeling was not fear
but a longing to join them
standing one by one, not like soldiers, but like worshippers
as if the sun nourishing them was enough
that moment i closed my eyes and turned my face towards the heavens
and wondered what it would take for something to just be enough