I’m sick again, which isn’t really all that much of a surprise, but it feels like when life throws one thing at you it just keeps throwing. I went to my psychiatrist today and found out my copay has jumped from $10 to $50 an appointment, I’m not sure who can afford to pay $50 per appointment but it certainly isn’t me. I can barely afford the $10 payment. Tomorrow I see my therapist, and now I’m 100% positive that the copay for that is going to shoot up just as much. This country is failing its poor, which is also not news. I don’t know what to do and to be honest I don’t have the energy right now to do anything about it. So tomorrow I fight with my insurance company and possibly my doctors office.
I do the things I’m supposed to, I apply for aid, I apply for better paying jobs constantly, I hear back from no one. My psychiatric medication is often the difference between being able to function and not being able to function, and occasionally it is the difference between life and death.
My story is not unique, I can name at least ten people that are in the same place, some with insurance some without. Some are much sicker then I am, some could die because of the state of healthcare in their state. I have an incredible amount of fear for my future, I am happy right now, I feel good and content minus the bronchitis thing, and the money situation, but I know that won’t last without medication and therapy. I’m just starting to like my life again after a hell of a few years.
We need universal healthcare, there are too many people suffering and sick because they cannot afford to go to the doctor or they wait too long to go to the doctor and then it’s too late, or they are dismissed because the doctors know they cannot pay for the treatment they need. It’s scary. I know if I were to get really sick I wouldn’t be able to afford to go to specialists, I’m running into this right now with chronic bronchitis and post nasal drip.
The sick part is I have insurance, and it’s still too expensive to make it happen. There’s a lot of talk about “pulling yourself up by your bootstraps and making it work no matter what”. It doesn’t help if you don’t have any boots to begin with. We need to do better, we need to understand that food, water, shelter, and healthcare are essential for survival. If we can afford to spend billions on wars that are supporting colonization and killing civilians, we can afford to provide basic needs to the millions of Americans that are uninsured or underinsured. We need to stop letting poor people die of treatable illnesses, we need to stop letting people with mental illness go without treatment. It makes society less productive, and all it does is make the insurance companies and their shareholders richer.
So I don’t know what to do. All I know is I’ve got to keep moving forward and attempting to find a job with better insurance and better pay. Living paycheck to paycheck is absolutely terrifying, if anything goes wrong I’m 100% screwed.
There is a better way. Collectively we are just choosing not to enact it, and that is cruel.