I promised a more uplifting subject matter a couple of days ago and so far I have not come through on that promise. Before I attempt something resembling positive thinking, I’d like to thank those of you who reached out to me, feeling recognized is incredibly powerful.
Today I drove all over New Jersey, I had a job interview, I had to meet a cat, and I started my move to the new apartment, small steps turning into big ones. I feel good about it, terrified of course, but I feel good. I get places early, and today I decided to leave straight from therapy at 10:00 to go to the interview at 3:00 and sit in my car and write or draw or whatever. Then the interview got rescheduled so now I’ve got around five hours to kill before I meet the cat, so I drive there with my dying phone and I find a nature reserve right next to where I was parked. It was raining but I decided to take the walk anyway, something told me it would be a good idea.
This is what I got, it was quiet and beautiful and even though I got soaked it was definitely worth the being absurdly early to things. This little haven in the middle of nowhere New Jersey got me thinking about the resilience of humans, not only how much we can take, but also how well we bounce back. Being a writer and an artist I collect people’s stories, when they let me in it’s an honor, so I know what people have gone through or are going through and we still live, or we try our damnedest to for as long as we can. I have seen the darkest parts of both my own soul and other’s around me. I do not judge. It is human. I don’t believe in miracles, but I do believe in things that I can see and hear and touch, and the ability to bounce back from tragedy has got to be one of the saddest but most amazing things about being a human being, and it is certainly something I can see and hear and touch. . I will not pollyanna this though, there are some things a person cannot come back from, and often that ends tragically and painfully. When that happens though, the person is losing the battle to an illness that has been around for a long time. I believe strongly that there are more things that we can come back from. More things that seem insurmountable but really are not.
So here’s some more pictures from my short but enlightening hike. Enjoy
I would like to point out the fact that these were made on an iphone makes me incredibly sad, but that fake bokeh looks pretty damn real to me.